[Me, remembering you are canon familiar and going :)
The small realm is mostly dark, with the only light coming from a set of stained glass windows. There's no visible furniture in the room, and in fact the only detail that can be seen is that there is some kind of wood floor here.
Atsushi is sitting in the center of the lit up area, using what little light is available to scribble something into a book. He seems pretty focused on it, writing on and on without taking a break. Though when Vax comes by he'll look up to him.]
... the stained glass is nice, actually. it feels like duskmeadow. vax looks up at it, lets the colors sort of flicker across his face, settling in the moment before he even really announces his presence. as he makes his way over, vax's emotional vibes are... tired, melancholy, but steady. ]
...Hey, Soosh. [ he speaks quietly, in such a sacrosanct place. ] What're you working on?
[Atsushi also feels tired, but also lowkey anxious and like the nerves of 'tomorrow is coming' and 'I don't have much time left' are nipping at the back of his mind. It's the focus on his writing that's keeping him from losing it, really.]
Something I thought I would have more time to finish.
[He admits that with a sigh.]
It's harder to write when a deadline is coming up, you know? There's so much I wanted to put in here, but I can't put my thoughts together enough to get even half of it down.
[The current place he's open to has one completed page and one page he's still writing on. The completed side is talking about books and listing some of his favorite genres of writing, as a way to introduce whoever's going to end up reading it to more books to read in the future. The other side has a list labeled as "Foods to Try" and lists the names of several dishes. This side is only partially done.]
honestly, the fondness just increases a little more, though there's a deep stab of sorrow underneath it that could only be related to vin. he's so fucking worried - and he knows, how badly loss hurts her. how badly this specific loss is going to kill her.
however, he's not going to say that out loud. so, anyway. you think he didn't notice this already? you think he did not?
... kid's about to die, so it's not like vax can threaten him, really, so. ]
...Think she'll like that, a lot. [ ... ]
Have you told her? [ and he is not talking about the book. ]
[It's a guidebook of 'things to do when your world is saved', he hopes she likes it.
He does go a bit awkward at that question though.]
N-no...it doesn't really seem like a good thing to do now anyway.
[There is an undercurrent of self-loathing there too. 'There's no point in ever admitting to a crush, because there's no way anyone would like me back'. That's a very distinct kind of sorrow Atsushi has been grappling with these last few weeks.]
...Look. I've been in that situation, before. Even - even when I did it, it didn't work out right away. [ but it did, eventually, is the obvious implication there. ] Even if she didn't return the feeling, I knew - if I was going to fucking die, if we were going to fucking die, I couldn't go without letting her know. Even if we lived, and she didn't return the feeling, that didn't matter. None of it changed the fact that I loved the person I told.
[ his emotions are - complicated. warm, but there's grief, too. worry, for atsushi. a little frustration and irritation, but it's mostly muffled under that melancholy tired.
he reaches up and scrubs his hand over his face. ]
... Not that it fucking matters, I think you could see that she's into you from space. [ the emotion is jesus fucking christ i can't believe i'm having this conversation with you right now ] Get out of your own head and have a little confidence, Soosh! Fuck.
[The hilarious thing is that this is like the third time he's had this conversation in some form, but nobody has said the magic words to kick Atsushi out of his anxiety spiral when it comes to 'Vin' and 'feelings'.]
...she is? You're sure?
[Atsushi is a idiot who wears his heart on his sleeve and can't even hide the flip-flop of hope in his stomach there. He gains crushes so easily but he shoves them all away because he just assumes that everybody is interested in someone else and couldn't possibly like him. He's too pessimistic and thinks that anything that might be a 'maybe she likes me' is actually just in his head and he'll be rejected and look like and idiot and feel like an idiot for ever thinking he could be more than just friends with someone.
But all it takes is someone confirming that yes, those feelings are mutual, and suddenly those doubts are (mostly) cleared away.]
he just reaches out and swats him in the back of the head, though it's not very hard at all. ]
Yes, you fucking doofus.
[ this is so hypocritical because vax is just as stupid about this ] So, say something about it while you still can. And talk to Ruby, while you're at it! Fuck.
[ at the bottom of the page, in his neat, slanted handwriting, smaller than atsushi's but still there, he adds: ]
No matter what happens, don't forget that you're loved. - Sly
[ for as much as he's a joker and a gremlin, vax is a big, soft baby on the inside. this little gesture means a lot to him, for vin, because he knows how hard this all is for her.
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Week 4, Saturday
Date: 2022-03-20 02:17 pm (UTC)The small realm is mostly dark, with the only light coming from a set of stained glass windows. There's no visible furniture in the room, and in fact the only detail that can be seen is that there is some kind of wood floor here.
Atsushi is sitting in the center of the lit up area, using what little light is available to scribble something into a book. He seems pretty focused on it, writing on and on without taking a break. Though when Vax comes by he'll look up to him.]
Ah? Hello?
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Date: 2022-03-20 03:05 pm (UTC)... the stained glass is nice, actually. it feels like duskmeadow. vax looks up at it, lets the colors sort of flicker across his face, settling in the moment before he even really announces his presence. as he makes his way over, vax's emotional vibes are... tired, melancholy, but steady. ]
...Hey, Soosh. [ he speaks quietly, in such a sacrosanct place. ] What're you working on?
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Date: 2022-03-20 03:12 pm (UTC)Something I thought I would have more time to finish.
[He admits that with a sigh.]
It's harder to write when a deadline is coming up, you know? There's so much I wanted to put in here, but I can't put my thoughts together enough to get even half of it down.
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Date: 2022-03-20 03:37 pm (UTC)he comes and sits down cross legged across from him. ]
A story? [ peering... there's some curiosity there. ]
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Date: 2022-03-20 03:49 pm (UTC)[The current place he's open to has one completed page and one page he's still writing on. The completed side is talking about books and listing some of his favorite genres of writing, as a way to introduce whoever's going to end up reading it to more books to read in the future. The other side has a list labeled as "Foods to Try" and lists the names of several dishes. This side is only partially done.]
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Date: 2022-03-20 03:53 pm (UTC)he thinks, maybe, he can guess who it might be for, but. ]
...For who? If you don't mind me asking.
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Date: 2022-03-20 04:01 pm (UTC)[Yep. There's no hiding that massive crush he has, not during emotionshare week. Guess who is also into one of your sisters, Vax.]
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Date: 2022-03-20 04:04 pm (UTC)honestly, the fondness just increases a little more, though there's a deep stab of sorrow underneath it that could only be related to vin. he's so fucking worried - and he knows, how badly loss hurts her. how badly this specific loss is going to kill her.
however, he's not going to say that out loud. so, anyway. you think he didn't notice this already? you think he did not?
... kid's about to die, so it's not like vax can threaten him, really, so. ]
...Think she'll like that, a lot. [ ... ]
Have you told her? [ and he is not talking about the book. ]
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Date: 2022-03-20 04:29 pm (UTC)[It's a guidebook of 'things to do when your world is saved', he hopes she likes it.
He does go a bit awkward at that question though.]
N-no...it doesn't really seem like a good thing to do now anyway.
[There is an undercurrent of self-loathing there too. 'There's no point in ever admitting to a crush, because there's no way anyone would like me back'. That's a very distinct kind of sorrow Atsushi has been grappling with these last few weeks.]
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Date: 2022-03-20 04:45 pm (UTC)well, okay. this gets a different emotion, one that feels very uh.
unhappy actually. maybe a vibe closer to that shovel tag, actually, though it's more like fucking really ]
Quit that. [ this is just addressing that self-loathing undercurrent, first, but -] Listen to me.
[ just very bluntly: ] If you're gonna die tomorrow, do you want to die regretting that you didn't say anything?
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Date: 2022-03-20 04:56 pm (UTC)I...don't even know if she likes me back.
[He says, even though they've spent the entire week being warm and bubbly around each other.]
Isn't it selfish to just dump my feelings on her like that?
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Date: 2022-03-20 05:01 pm (UTC)mid battle confession to keyleth
frowns. ]
...Look. I've been in that situation, before. Even - even when I did it, it didn't work out right away. [ but it did, eventually, is the obvious implication there. ] Even if she didn't return the feeling, I knew - if I was going to fucking die, if we were going to fucking die, I couldn't go without letting her know. Even if we lived, and she didn't return the feeling, that didn't matter. None of it changed the fact that I loved the person I told.
[ his emotions are - complicated. warm, but there's grief, too. worry, for atsushi. a little frustration and irritation, but it's mostly muffled under that melancholy tired.
he reaches up and scrubs his hand over his face. ]
... Not that it fucking matters, I think you could see that she's into you from space. [ the emotion is jesus fucking christ i can't believe i'm having this conversation with you right now ] Get out of your own head and have a little confidence, Soosh! Fuck.
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Date: 2022-03-20 05:23 pm (UTC)...she is? You're sure?
[Atsushi is a idiot who wears his heart on his sleeve and can't even hide the flip-flop of hope in his stomach there. He gains crushes so easily but he shoves them all away because he just assumes that everybody is interested in someone else and couldn't possibly like him. He's too pessimistic and thinks that anything that might be a 'maybe she likes me' is actually just in his head and he'll be rejected and look like and idiot and feel like an idiot for ever thinking he could be more than just friends with someone.
But all it takes is someone confirming that yes, those feelings are mutual, and suddenly those doubts are (mostly) cleared away.]
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Date: 2022-03-20 05:53 pm (UTC)he just reaches out and swats him in the back of the head, though it's not very hard at all. ]
Yes, you fucking doofus.
[ this is so hypocritical because vax is just as stupid about this ] So, say something about it while you still can. And talk to Ruby, while you're at it! Fuck.
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Date: 2022-03-20 05:55 pm (UTC)Ruby likes Vin too?! I-I can't say anything, they should have each other then!
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:05 pm (UTC)And you. You all like each other. It's not hard.
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:20 pm (UTC)We're all idiots.
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:26 pm (UTC)he claps him on the shoulder ]
Sure are.
[ very, very affectionate ]
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:29 pm (UTC)Immediately flipping to the next page in the book and scribbling the following down:]
TALK TO RUBY!
SHE LIKES YOU!
AND ME TOO I GUESS BUT TALK TO HER!
[Maybe that will make Vruby real too.]
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:32 pm (UTC)he reaches out, like - snickering, a little, laughing as he comes to sit next to him. ]
Can I see?
[ gesturing for the pen. ]
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Date: 2022-03-20 06:38 pm (UTC)Don't write anything rude okay?
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Date: 2022-03-20 07:04 pm (UTC)No matter what happens, don't forget that you're loved. - Sly
[ for as much as he's a joker and a gremlin, vax is a big, soft baby on the inside. this little gesture means a lot to him, for vin, because he knows how hard this all is for her.
he hands the pen back and book back. ]
There.
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Date: 2022-03-20 07:09 pm (UTC)She might need a nudge later, think you can do that?
[Since they're all idiots and all.]