She was angry -- that wasn't too unfamiliar, of course, from what others have told me. [ She's just always screaming and yelling and pissed off. ] But I could feel it, too, I felt... the anger of knowing that no matter, here or back home, in the end I will be killed.
[He wants to deny it and say his is too selfish, but what's the point in that? He's supposed to be comforting her and telling her it's okay to want things, so it wouldn't make sense for him to deny his own wants.]
...I want a home. Somewhere that I belong. Where I don't have to hide who I am or the demons that lurk in the shadows of my mind, and people accept me regardless. Where, even if I mess up or fail at something, it'll be alright.
Truthfully, I never really had one until recently. But I would like for my friends to find a safe way home. [ She smiles. ] And you are all included in that dream now.
[ Though she seems just a tad embarrassed for admitting that. ] I sincerely hope that you all will find a way back to your loved ones and, maybe… if there’s even a small chance: perhaps those of us who have died will return them as well. It would be nice to be called home.
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Date: 2022-03-06 04:15 am (UTC)I remember... brief glimpses, but the entire night is a blur.
But I could still feel her -- if only briefly. It didn't seem like she... was entirely in control, either.
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Date: 2022-03-06 04:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-06 04:29 am (UTC)She was angry -- that wasn't too unfamiliar, of course, from what others have told me. [ She's just always screaming and yelling and pissed off. ] But I could feel it, too, I felt... the anger of knowing that no matter, here or back home, in the end I will be killed.
In the end, I am not meant to live a normal life.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:03 am (UTC)I'm sorry. Even though you wanted no part in this, it's still happened.
[Maybe if they had worked quicker. Maybe if they hadn't done that murder mystery in the first place.]
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:13 am (UTC)It’s better this way… in the end, what I want is all selfish to begin with. But this is the best outcome.
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Date: 2022-03-06 05:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-06 05:38 am (UTC)Is there something you want, Atsushi-san? Something that you would do anything for?
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Date: 2022-03-06 07:59 pm (UTC)Haha, well...I do, but it's really silly and kind of selfish.
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Date: 2022-03-07 01:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-07 02:28 am (UTC)...I want a home. Somewhere that I belong. Where I don't have to hide who I am or the demons that lurk in the shadows of my mind, and people accept me regardless. Where, even if I mess up or fail at something, it'll be alright.
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Date: 2022-03-08 04:05 pm (UTC)[ And it's very similar to her own, but she won't say that. ]
I truly hope that you can escape from here and find that place where you can rest with people who love you with all their heart.
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Date: 2022-03-10 04:31 am (UTC)[He feels kind of bad hearing it, because she's definitely about to die tomorrow.]
What about you? What's your dream?
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Date: 2022-03-12 02:44 am (UTC)Truthfully, I never really had one until recently. But I would like for my friends to find a safe way home. [ She smiles. ] And you are all included in that dream now.
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Date: 2022-03-14 03:01 am (UTC)Dreaming for others is a good dream, I think. Thank you. For sharing it, and for your kind thoughts.
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Date: 2022-03-15 07:11 am (UTC)[ Though she seems just a tad embarrassed for admitting that. ] I sincerely hope that you all will find a way back to your loved ones and, maybe… if there’s even a small chance: perhaps those of us who have died will return them as well. It would be nice to be called home.