And here's something you don't know: I fucking know this!
They both would, it drives me insane. [ Don't mind her, she's just going to start pacing around. ] But I know... -- Fuck, at least Damien promised me he wouldn't do anything to get himself killed.
[He's watching her pace now, still holding his bowl of cereal while she rants.]
He might have promised that, but he's also someone who has too short of a temper and too long of a vindictive streak.
[He's not saying this to be mean, he's even sighing a little as he says it. He likes Damien a lot but wow he sure has his negative traits!]
From the time you were voted out until the time I was voted out, he never let me forget that I failed to find 9s's killer. He always reminded me that I was too late, that I failed both you and him, and that I was a terrible detective for it. And if he did that when it comes to something like being voted out, I can only imagine what he would do if it was a situation where he actually could intervene in some way.
That's why I thought he did it: because I know how he can be when someone he cares about is threatened. I'm glad I was proven wrong in the end, but that's why I thought what I did.
[ And she doesn't make promises a lot so? This is important to her. ]
I doubt he would've left Crow out in the cold like that, if his intentions were protecting him. Damien's an asshole but he's not going to chance someone he cares about not dying from fucking freezing to death to dip out of the scene.
[That actually gets him to stop for a moment. Like he had been about to say something, and then he stops with his mouth open and closes it again. And then he frowns.]
...if Yasusada thought he was protecting Kashuu, then why did he leave Crow out there to freeze?
[He's suddenly realizing that it doesn't make sense.]
Not necessarily. I didn't say anything when I was refracted, even at the end when I had been caught. Each refraction is based on the individual person, right?
Well it’s easy not to say anything about it when you’re next on the chopping block. [ Literally… my dude, you got executed. ]
Yeah. At least from what we know. Mine might have been a little different considering my other half wouldn’t be able to remember shit about the murder itself, but she could feel that anger from being refracted.
But those are some weird ass details no one gives a shit about. Anyway —
I don’t think… that if Crow was in a position where he may endanger himself or everyone else, that he’d be silent about it. [ Her expression sours. ] Maybe the Prism is just forcing him to forget, or something? He kept talking about how fucked up his memory was the entire time.
...when I disappeared with Damien, Yasusada, and Vax that one week, the place we ended up at messed with our memories too. But not all of our memories. It was only the negative ones.
We had a...stage area, I suppose? And up on that stage, we saw several people die in horrible ways. But even as we were watching it happen, I was already starting to forget it. Like it wasn't real, and I didn't even know who was dying, despite the fact that it was one of my closest friends.
I didn't really think anything of that specific detail at first, because I always assumed the more important part of that trip was the whole "choose between safety or growth" was the more important part. But then something similar happened to me last week, where I felt that same 'distance' from Vanille's death too. And this week people came back from their trips with missing memories, and Crow has trouble remembering the attack. And each and every time, it always seems like it's the negative memories that are affected. And then we can look at the Residents themselves: they don't remember the four Residents who died- which definitely would be negative memories- and they seem to like the Prism and are reluctant to change.
[It's not enough to draw a conclusion yet, but it's making him ask more questions. There's too many pieces to put together and he has but two braincells to rub together.]
That's because they're trying to make you all comfortable, right? The Prism, I mean. It may be reacting in a way to making sure those that are possibly close to refracting... not? By toying with their memories and then causing the emotions that may have been overwhelming with a certain color to balance out.
Just a guess, though.
But obviously getting comfortable here isn't a good idea, because I'm assuming that's what happened to the Resident's here. They made it their home and essentially forgot about the dead.
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Date: 2022-03-27 02:19 am (UTC)They both would, it drives me insane. [ Don't mind her, she's just going to start pacing around. ] But I know... -- Fuck, at least Damien promised me he wouldn't do anything to get himself killed.
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Date: 2022-03-27 02:30 am (UTC)He might have promised that, but he's also someone who has too short of a temper and too long of a vindictive streak.
[He's not saying this to be mean, he's even sighing a little as he says it. He likes Damien a lot but wow he sure has his negative traits!]
From the time you were voted out until the time I was voted out, he never let me forget that I failed to find 9s's killer. He always reminded me that I was too late, that I failed both you and him, and that I was a terrible detective for it. And if he did that when it comes to something like being voted out, I can only imagine what he would do if it was a situation where he actually could intervene in some way.
That's why I thought he did it: because I know how he can be when someone he cares about is threatened. I'm glad I was proven wrong in the end, but that's why I thought what I did.
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Date: 2022-03-27 02:55 am (UTC)They both promised me.
[ And she doesn't make promises a lot so? This is important to her. ]
I doubt he would've left Crow out in the cold like that, if his intentions were protecting him. Damien's an asshole but he's not going to chance someone he cares about not dying from fucking freezing to death to dip out of the scene.
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Date: 2022-03-27 02:57 am (UTC)...if Yasusada thought he was protecting Kashuu, then why did he leave Crow out there to freeze?
[He's suddenly realizing that it doesn't make sense.]
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Date: 2022-03-27 03:04 am (UTC)...
Still doesn't make sense, I guess.
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Date: 2022-03-27 03:08 am (UTC)[And here he thought that the only refracted one for that case was Meteion!]
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Date: 2022-03-27 03:16 am (UTC)[ Huh? Huh? HUH????? SAY SIKE ]
But wouldn't he say somethin', if that was the case?
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Date: 2022-03-27 03:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-03-27 03:55 am (UTC)Yeah. At least from what we know. Mine might have been a little different considering my other half wouldn’t be able to remember shit about the murder itself, but she could feel that anger from being refracted.
But those are some weird ass details no one gives a shit about. Anyway —
I don’t think… that if Crow was in a position where he may endanger himself or everyone else, that he’d be silent about it. [ Her expression sours. ] Maybe the Prism is just forcing him to forget, or something? He kept talking about how fucked up his memory was the entire time.
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Date: 2022-03-27 04:14 am (UTC)...when I disappeared with Damien, Yasusada, and Vax that one week, the place we ended up at messed with our memories too. But not all of our memories. It was only the negative ones.
We had a...stage area, I suppose? And up on that stage, we saw several people die in horrible ways. But even as we were watching it happen, I was already starting to forget it. Like it wasn't real, and I didn't even know who was dying, despite the fact that it was one of my closest friends.
I didn't really think anything of that specific detail at first, because I always assumed the more important part of that trip was the whole "choose between safety or growth" was the more important part. But then something similar happened to me last week, where I felt that same 'distance' from Vanille's death too. And this week people came back from their trips with missing memories, and Crow has trouble remembering the attack. And each and every time, it always seems like it's the negative memories that are affected. And then we can look at the Residents themselves: they don't remember the four Residents who died- which definitely would be negative memories- and they seem to like the Prism and are reluctant to change.
[It's not enough to draw a conclusion yet, but it's making him ask more questions. There's too many pieces to put together and he has but two braincells to rub together.]
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Date: 2022-03-27 12:43 pm (UTC)Just a guess, though.
But obviously getting comfortable here isn't a good idea, because I'm assuming that's what happened to the Resident's here. They made it their home and essentially forgot about the dead.