PCs - Vin

[moonlightbeast]

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[moonlightbeast]

[She gets a flash of sympathy from him.]

It's harder to be around people, isn't it? But actually, that's why Monday got weird. I felt weird because of feeling your emotions, which is why I was acting weird too.

[Atsushi you tried to jump out a window.]

[allomantic]

Oh, that's right, you would have felt...

[Oh No

there's just a mounting sense of embarrassment as she starts going red.]

—Anyways! If, er, if the same thing happens again, don't jump out a window!

[moonlightbeast]

[That embarrassment makes him suddenly feel embarrassed too. Oh no.]

I-I wasn't going to jump exactly, I was just going to climb down carefully to the next window and escape through that apartment.

[Nevermind that they can't actually do that here, I already checked with the mods.]

[allomantic]

[after a pause:]

Whatever you felt... It was bad enough to want to run away...? Can I - ask what it was?

[moonlightbeast]

It's...not that I felt anything from you, exactly, but...

[...]

I have a lot of things inside of me that I'd rather other people didn't feel. And running away from it seemed like the best idea to avoid it at that moment, when I was unguarded and not trying to keep those 'things' squashed down like I usually do.

[allomantic]

[he'll get some concern, from that.]

...I would - like to know what they are. I wouldn't have minded them, whatever they are.

[moonlightbeast]

[He is. Torn. Because he is not going to admit to his crush, especially not after the talk he had with Jiuqing. That's a secret he'll be keeping until it's forced out of him.

But he does have feelings beyond that crush, so!]

Don't you feel it right now? It's like your stomach is unsettled, and that you might get sick if you're shoved around too much.

[Atsushi, describing the anxiety he feels all the time.]

[allomantic]

...Are you sure you shouldn't be talking to her about that, too?

[atsushi your anxiety]

But either way - you don't have to try to hide from me.

[moonlightbeast]

There's not much that can be done about that. Not without a lot of tests and regular medication, which is expensive.

[Atsushi, noted 'broke binch'.]

I just don't want to make you feel bad, I guess.

[allomantic]

Well... The Residents have been able to give me things if I help them with your tasks. I wonder if they'd be able to provide you with your medicine.

[a little frown, though.]

A while ago you told me that I did not have to censor myself around you... I would say the same to you.

[moonlightbeast]

I think if I was going to ask the Residents for anything, then I could think of a lot of things I would ask for before medicine.

[Sometimes you just live with anxiety, it's fine.]

...I'll try not to censor myself anymore though. It's hard to break old habits, but I'll try.

[Because Vin's worth trying for.]

[allomantic]

Does it have a name?

[he'll feel a little bit of relief and fondness as he says that.]

Thank you.

[moonlightbeast]

Anxiety.

[At least Atsushi knows enough to know that.]

It's something that won't ever really go away either. It's easier to deal with on some days than it is on others, but it's always there.

[allomantic]

[another stirring of concern. ]

It must be difficult to deal with.

[moonlightbeast]

[Oh nooo not the concern! He tries to project warm feelings purposefully, to show her that it's okay, he's not even feeling it that much right now. Except he's feeling it a little bit, because talking to your crush is difficult sometimes.]

It's okay, really! It's more like...background noise, usually. You get used to it.

[allomantic]

I wish you had not had to...

[but a little bit of the concern fades away as he says that, at least.]

[moonlightbeast]

I know. I wish I didn't have to either. But as far as problems go, I guess I could have worse ones?

[He's honestly one of the more normal people in his canon, which is saying something.]

[allomantic]

That does not make yours any better, though, does it?

[moonlightbeast]

Not necessarily better, no. But it reminds me that I have good things in my life now, and those good things help chase away the negative things.

[allomantic]

[she doesn't say anything for a moment, but there's definitely a rush of fondness.]

...It is a good way to look at it, I suppose.

[moonlightbeast]

[Oh no, that fondness will get a feeling of appreciation and fondness in return.]

Mhmm! And who knows, they say time heals everything. So better days might help, yeah?

[allomantic]

Mm... I hope you find plenty of those, once all this is over.

[moonlightbeast]

Me too.

[A pause, and a tiny bit of anxiety pops up there as he questions his word choice.]

Er, I mean. I hope you find plenty of peaceful days too. Not that I only want good days for me.

[He's not that selfish.]

[allomantic]

[both amused and a tiny bit uncomfortable, but the amusement wins out.]

I know you are not the type to wish luck for only yourself. Don't worry.