PCs - Vin

[moonlightbeast]

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Week 4, Tuesday

[moonlightbeast]

[At some point they're going to cross paths, because this place is only so big and they live in the same apartment anyway. But when Atsushi bumps into Vin, his face will light up and he'll give off a feeling of both excitement and anxiousness.]

Oh, hey!

[allomantic]

[she raises her hand in greeting when she sees him.]

Hello. [...] Jiuqing made it seem like you're doing fine?

[moonlightbeast]

Ahh, yeah. She said that I looked fine when she checked me over. Actually, it might be because of the strange effect this week, did you notice it yet?

[allomantic]

[she nods, with a little frown.]

It is not as bad as last week, but... I dislike it.

[moonlightbeast]

[She gets a flash of sympathy from him.]

It's harder to be around people, isn't it? But actually, that's why Monday got weird. I felt weird because of feeling your emotions, which is why I was acting weird too.

[Atsushi you tried to jump out a window.]

[allomantic]

Oh, that's right, you would have felt...

[Oh No

there's just a mounting sense of embarrassment as she starts going red.]

—Anyways! If, er, if the same thing happens again, don't jump out a window!

[moonlightbeast]

[That embarrassment makes him suddenly feel embarrassed too. Oh no.]

I-I wasn't going to jump exactly, I was just going to climb down carefully to the next window and escape through that apartment.

[Nevermind that they can't actually do that here, I already checked with the mods.]

[allomantic]

[after a pause:]

Whatever you felt... It was bad enough to want to run away...? Can I - ask what it was?

[moonlightbeast]

It's...not that I felt anything from you, exactly, but...

[...]

I have a lot of things inside of me that I'd rather other people didn't feel. And running away from it seemed like the best idea to avoid it at that moment, when I was unguarded and not trying to keep those 'things' squashed down like I usually do.

[allomantic]

[he'll get some concern, from that.]

...I would - like to know what they are. I wouldn't have minded them, whatever they are.

[moonlightbeast]

[He is. Torn. Because he is not going to admit to his crush, especially not after the talk he had with Jiuqing. That's a secret he'll be keeping until it's forced out of him.

But he does have feelings beyond that crush, so!]

Don't you feel it right now? It's like your stomach is unsettled, and that you might get sick if you're shoved around too much.

[Atsushi, describing the anxiety he feels all the time.]

[allomantic]

...Are you sure you shouldn't be talking to her about that, too?

[atsushi your anxiety]

But either way - you don't have to try to hide from me.

[moonlightbeast]

There's not much that can be done about that. Not without a lot of tests and regular medication, which is expensive.

[Atsushi, noted 'broke binch'.]

I just don't want to make you feel bad, I guess.

[allomantic]

Well... The Residents have been able to give me things if I help them with your tasks. I wonder if they'd be able to provide you with your medicine.

[a little frown, though.]

A while ago you told me that I did not have to censor myself around you... I would say the same to you.

[moonlightbeast]

I think if I was going to ask the Residents for anything, then I could think of a lot of things I would ask for before medicine.

[Sometimes you just live with anxiety, it's fine.]

...I'll try not to censor myself anymore though. It's hard to break old habits, but I'll try.

[Because Vin's worth trying for.]

[allomantic]

Does it have a name?

[he'll feel a little bit of relief and fondness as he says that.]

Thank you.

[moonlightbeast]

Anxiety.

[At least Atsushi knows enough to know that.]

It's something that won't ever really go away either. It's easier to deal with on some days than it is on others, but it's always there.

[allomantic]

[another stirring of concern. ]

It must be difficult to deal with.

[moonlightbeast]

[Oh nooo not the concern! He tries to project warm feelings purposefully, to show her that it's okay, he's not even feeling it that much right now. Except he's feeling it a little bit, because talking to your crush is difficult sometimes.]

It's okay, really! It's more like...background noise, usually. You get used to it.

[allomantic]

I wish you had not had to...

[but a little bit of the concern fades away as he says that, at least.]

[moonlightbeast]

I know. I wish I didn't have to either. But as far as problems go, I guess I could have worse ones?

[He's honestly one of the more normal people in his canon, which is saying something.]

[allomantic]

That does not make yours any better, though, does it?

[moonlightbeast]

Not necessarily better, no. But it reminds me that I have good things in my life now, and those good things help chase away the negative things.

[allomantic]

[she doesn't say anything for a moment, but there's definitely a rush of fondness.]

...It is a good way to look at it, I suppose.

[moonlightbeast]

[Oh no, that fondness will get a feeling of appreciation and fondness in return.]

Mhmm! And who knows, they say time heals everything. So better days might help, yeah?